Taking Another Chance

I am writing today to fill you in on hopefully the next part of my journey. As I am still at a stall, quite a ways from my goal. I am pursuing surgery for the removal of my lymphedema. I have an appointment on June 11 at the University of Michigan with the same plastic surgeon I saw before my bariatric procedure in November 2016. At that time he proposed surgery but it was an eight month waiting list.

Now, the bulge from the lymphedema has gotten bigger, and is impacting me more both physically and mentally. I truly believe that not only will my weight drop from the empty space, but it will give me the confidence and ability to do more varied workouts and get closer to my goal. The other extra skin is really not that bad, it is the lymphedema that is impeding me.

Therefore, I want to see what the plastic surgeon has to say, and hopefully they can get me in for surgery soon. Please keep those prayers going.

In other news, as most of you saw earlier this month, I now have caught the 5K bug!! I walked my first 5K through downtown Wyandotte, and I survived, and I had fun, and I can’t wait to do another two or six ha-ha! I am looking for the next one, and hopefully some of you are able to join me!

In other good news, I believe I am still losing inches without the pounds. Depending on the brand, I can now wear some 2x shirts comfortably, and I just tried size 54 shorts that were not sweat material and they fit! However, because of the location of my bulge they don’t look the greatest. But, I am getting there!

Also, this week I had my latest round of eye injections, which had to be rescheduled a couple times from last month due to insurance transportation issues. The doctor is still happy with the progress, and I got approved to space them out every three months instead of two! This time around there was more what the doctor called oozing around the eye, so they are more red than usual, but he said that is just cosmetic and that everything went smoothly medically speaking.

So there you have it! I am anxiously awaiting my appointment on June 11, and praying that I make some good headway on this next leg of my journey.

I love you all, and looking forward to keeping you updated in the near future!


Catching Up

I want to sincerely apologize for not updating everyone sooner. My journey is far from over, and neither is this blog. One of the main reasons for the delay is that my work from home job is now transcribing audio files, which involves a whole lot of typing and looking at the computer screen. I don’t make a lot, but it keeps my mind going and gives me a little extra.

By far the biggest change over the past few months is in my living situation. Thanks to the generosity and kindness of my best friend Rae, I am now back living with them in Allen Park. There are a few reasons for this that benefit us both.

First of all, I really needed to get out of River Rouge. I could not earn anything without my rent going up for that closet that was called an apartment, and I felt so isolated from everyone and everything. I’ve said it before, but it was in the middle of everything yet in the middle of nowhere. This way I can finally start to save up some money for a place in a better location, and can be around people and society. I am still on waiting lists for units, but don’t have to stress out nearly as much.

The one condition is I repay the support and help that Rae provided to kick off my journey by helping Rae on their own weight loss journey as they begin pursuing bariatric surgery this year. We plan menus together and shop, and I am cooking and sharing my recipes and way of eating.

This is a win-win situation for both of us. It helps keep us accountable, it’s given me more excitement cooking for more than just myself, and we are going to the gym together three to four times a week. Just a couple months into the pre-surgery process, and Rae has already lost over 20 pounds.

Another benefit is that I am now about 20 minutes closer to most friends and family, so if anyone wants to come for a visit just let me know!!

Now onto my journey. Unfortunately, I have not a major plateau when it comes to the numbers on the scale. It can get quite discouraging oftentimes, but I try to stay positive and focus on all the other changes. My fasting A1C is lower than it has been in decades. I am down to only two prescriptions medications. I am still losing inches, as clothes are fitting much differently.

And, although I still don’t get great sleep, I have more of both physical and emotional energy. My room is in the basement of Rae’s house, and I have no problem going up and down the stairs several times a day. I no longer have to walk back and forth in my room just to get steps in as I am much more active in general.

I have an appointment toward the end of the month to see if I can get approved for skin and lymphedema removal surgery soon. I realize I have a ways to go to my goal weight, but since the plateau has been for st least six months, I am hoping I can move forward. I think the surgery will really help me get around better as my equilibrium will improve, and I am guessing that they will remove 30 to 40 pounds. Once I get this procedure I am sure that I can lose the last part. I just hope my team isn’t too disappointed with the stall.

Another exciting event is going to happen hopefully May 5, and that is my first outdoor 5K walk, as long as I can get people to join me. If you are interested please let me know, and I will pass on the details.

On the subject of fitness, just a few observations about the gym. Am I the only one who gets distracted when doing reps during strength training exercises? I am pretty sure I do a lot more than I should since I lose count and end up doing extra just to make sure. Also, I have such a hard time with breathing correctly while strength training as well, but hey, at least I am still doing it!

Also at the gym, I am getting back to trying different machines again. I did five minutes on the elliptical a couple weeks ago, after doing my full treadmill workout, and I will only go up from there.

Next up for me is another set of eye injections April 23, and at that time they will test to see if they can spread them out to every three months instead of two. I am now very used to them, but I do not enjoy them at all. They still freak me out!

As always, I thank everyone for the immense support and encouragement, even though sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve it. That’s the fat brain part of me that is so hard to get rid of, but I get better every day. You all amaze me and keep me going.

I promise to get back to communicating more often. Love you guys!!

One Year Down, A Lifetime to Go

These pictures show so much of the story. The top is from Christmas 2014, and the bottom is from this Christmas. Three years and at least 200 pounds lost.

Today I celebrate the anniversary of the day I officially got my life and my health back. This has certainly not been an easy year in many ways, but it truly has been worth it.

I wanted to take some time today reflecting on the year, and offer insights on the struggles and things I have learned along the way. There are many things that you honestly can’t fully prepare for or appreciate until you experience them.

First a recap of the positives since surgery. I am no longer diabetic. I am down to one blood pressure medication, from 3 or 4 previously. My CPAP pressure went from 17 to 11. My activity and energy levels are increasing every day, along with my self-confidence and independence. My clothes are less expensive because I am buying smaller sizes. Those are just a few.

Now to some of the not so fun aspects. Just a warning, the first one may be gross to some, but it is important. I never realized just how much my life would revolve around going number two. This struggle is very real. I find if I don’t go at least once a day that when I do try to go it’s incredibly painful. And with the way my stomach is now, straining is very bad. Every time I go is like a new celebration. A couple months ago, I almost went to the ER because I was incredibly bloated even after taking magnesium citrate. Fortunately, my lymphedema pump therapy helped stimulate things and saved me an embarrassing trip to the hospital. I am on a probiotic daily now, which has been a big help and has kept me from having to take Miralax daily.

Another physical struggle is what they call dumping syndrome, which is not exactly what it sounds like. Basically it’s your body reacting to something with lots of sugar, fat, or grease. The symptoms are nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, among others. Everybody is different, in what causes them to dump and what they feel. I have only experienced this a couple times, but it is enough to bring you down for the day. Funny enough, it has been from things from restaurants that I had no problems with at home, so it had to be the way they were prepared.

One mental challenge is that I find myself thinking about food even more now than prior to surgery, just in a different way. I am constantly considering if I eat this, what does that mean for the rest of the day. Also making sure I have enough of the right groceries stocked, which leads to something else: I don’t care what they say, it IS more expensive to eat healthier. The less processed foods are pricier, and I have to shop more often due to the freshness of everything along with a small freezer.

One last struggle is that head hunger definitely returns sooner than you think, so it is definitely about having the right things on hand.

I am trying to combat the lasst few, however. I think I am going to start meal planning for the week and write it down, so that way I think it will be easier to stick to a plan if it’s in writing, as well as save myself some daily stress. I have stocked up on sugar free hard candy to have between meals if I feel I need something.

One solution I’m most excited about is that starting today, I can have raw carrots, broccoli, and cauliflower. They were probited for a year as they can be harder to digest. These will be great to have on hand to grab a couple pieces to have something to munch on, or to have as an afternoon snack with nonfat Greek yogurt and dry ranch mix. I am thrilled to have these again!!

I still have a ways to go, and the scale is my enemy the last couple months. But looking at the overall picture and my body still changing and losing inches, I am very proud of what I have accomplished.

And I am not even close to throwing in the towel. I am going back to basics on my meals, and planning will definitely help with that. I am also becoming more active. Last month I had the epiphany that I can get steps in even just in my apartment. This has been a godsend because getting to the gym has been challenging between the weather and finances. Last month I had the most steps ever, and I should beat that in January. I am going to pick up a couple 5 pound weights soon and add them to my apartment walking workouts. It really is all about making the most of what you have.

My major goal this year is to lose enough weight to become eligible for my skin removal surgery. According to the weight center, I have to be at a steady weight for at least six months. Using their goal weight, I have another 70 to 80 pounds to lose. I would be happy to just get under 300, because I know that the skin they would remove is at least 30 pounds.

I hope you are still reading this ha-ha. Even with the struggles of the past couple months, I do not regret anything. I get so excited seeing my future: driving again, working a fulltime job outside of home, and who knows, maybe even start dating and having a social life. The possibilities are endless!

I have some exciting changes coming in the near future, and I don’t want to jinx anything, so I will let you know as they happen.

I continue to be awed by your constant support, love, and friendship. This journey would not be the same without all of you. You keep me going!

Checking In

I apologize for not writing recently, but i guess as they say, no news is good news! There has not been very much exciting happening, but nothing very bad either.

I did go for my sleep study in November, and I think it went okay even though it felt like I was awake most of the time. I had to switch CPAP supply companies as the one I was working with no longer carries the type of headgear I use, so now it is a waiting game for the new one to process my prescription. Then I will find out if my pressure has changed.

Due to issues with my sinuses, I have been taking benadryl at night, and seem to be sleeping somewhat better with that.

The number on the scale is still not moving much, but I do know that my body is continuing to change and shift. I think next week I will mix my diet up some, and switch to protein shakes for two or three of my five meals each day, and try to trick my body. It can’t hurt!

I am still doing a variety of exercises at the gym, and walking more around my close area on days I don’t make it there. I love the gym so much still, I just have to make sure I can get there and not go broke.

On that note, I have a side story from earlier this week that pretty much sums up all of my negative and positive experiences on this journey. I went to the gym on Wednesday, as I know some of you saw the picture I posted. I did 8 minutes on the arc trainer, over two miles on the treadmill at various intensities, and my arm resistance strength training.

Well then an idea popped into my head. There is a regular bus that goes between the gym and my apartment. I am not at a place yet to take it on the way there, as I don’t yet feel comfortable crossing two very busy streets. But on the way home, both getting on and off is on the correct side of the road. So I decided to give it a try.

I had looked before, and used the bus system’s app, to figure out where to stop to get on should be. I set out from the gym to Eureka Road, which is past a couple stores in a strip mall and a CVS. Then I cross the mall entrance and walk along Eureka.

I could not find the stop!! I don’t know if the sign came down from a storm or a person, but I walked up and down that road with no luck. I ended up having to walk back to the gym and request a ride from Uber as usual, and pay over $12 compared to 50 cents for the bus.

I was infuriated with the bus system, and still am not real thrilled with them, but then I changed my perspective. In trying to do the bus, I walked probably between a half and three quarters of a mile, after a workout!! It amazes me what I am able to do now!! How cool is that?

I realize that probably sounds silly to some, but as I have learned, I have to soak up all these experiences and bask in them to truly appreciate just how far I’ve come, literally and figuratively. And how important perspective can be as well.

On the housing front, I am moving closer to an interview with the complex in Romulus. I got a letter last weekend that they needed another signature from me. They also needed the Social Security benefits letter from the agency directly, even though I printed one out for them from my account. When I called her to verify, the woman said my packet was done very well and she was impressed with my thoroughness. I just got the new letter, so I am going to fax it either today or Monday. So hopefully I will have that interview in the next week or two.

Also coming up this week is my next set of eye injections on Monday morning. They are pretty routine at this point, but still my least favorite procedure. I always get scared that my eyes are not numb enough.

Well, for not having much to say, I guess I have said quite a bit! I will close for now, and promise to check back with all of you more often.

Have a wonderful weekend, I love you all!

Appointment Updates

Happy Friday to all. I haved been do I’m by good, fitting into more and more 2x shirts recently, so that is very exciting!!

Yesterday I returned to wound care. My groin wound has not been causing any issues, until I got to the exam room LOL. The nurse took me back, and she has to measure and take pictures, etc. At first she thought it was healed, and I was thrilled. But then she gets a flashlight and determines it is very superficial but not healed. Then another nurse had to come in to take the picture. When they try to take it, they realize the first one made it bleed!! I compare it to a scab or pimple that you pick at. So, of course when the PA comes in, it looks good but not as good as it should have. She said to just keep doing what I’m doing and see here in about a month. I think it won’t completely heal until after I get skin removal surgery. At least it is not too bothersome.

Today I went to the pulmonologist for my sleep apnea, and the most important thing is I get an order for a new sleep study, as well as a prescription for new supplies. I will call to schedule the study on Monday morning. This will determine if my pressure on my CPAP needs to be lowered, which is quite possible and may also be the cause of the mask seal issue I have been experiencing. He said he wanted me to increase my sleep hours every night, and I wanted to say DUH, don’t you think I would if I could! Haha!! Unless the sleep study shows major issues, I shouldn’t have to go back to that office until my weight loss is complete.

That pretty much sums up my week. I just keep plugging away, because all the little things are adding up to huge gains (or losses, if you will)! This weekend, probably Sunday, I will be sharing two new recipes on Facebook, so be on the lookout for them.

I love you all to the moon and back. Thanks for reading!

Odds and Ends

Good evening. I have a lot of little things going on, so I thought I would put them all together in one post.

First off, I saw my primary care doctor yesterday. Everything went well and fairly uneventful. One thing is she mentioned she would like me to take a baby aspirin daily. However, after bariatric surgery, patients are advised not to take any aspirin products for life. She still thinks I will be okay taking it, so I have to contact my surgeon to ask him.

The bigger news is this: I fasted so that she could do bloodwork if she wanted. The results came back today already, and the exciting thing is my fasting a1c was 5.1!! Pre-diabetic is considered between 5.7 and 6.1. And my blood sugars have been consistent around 100 since I stopped taking metformin last week. The doctor noted on my labs that all of my levels are in normal ranges, and I go back for my annual physical in February.

I have an appointment with the pulmonologist next Friday for my sleep apnea checkup, and the day before I go to wound care again. My wound has not been an issue for a while, so I just want to go and see what they have to say.

I find myself continuously blessed in so many little ways so often. I just got an email from Uber for a promotion of 50 percent off my next 10 rides through this Sunday, so Planet Fitness here I come!! That is too good of a deal not to pass up. I might taked one of those days and do something fun if I can think of anything! Also, I should be able to restart the door to door transportation service on November 1, so that will bring my costs down as well.

I haven’t heard anything on housing yet. I do have another place to go apply to. It’s a senior and public housing complex in Melvindale. I thought I had applied with the others last year, but apparently I never submitted the paperwork (probably because I got into my current place so quickly). So I will have to get up there to pick up the application, fill it out, and submit it soon. I wouldn’t be so far away from everyone, and the high school is right next door with a track I could go walk on for exercise.

I mentioned previously about having to return and exchange the 3x shirts for 2x. Unfortunately one could not be exchanged so they refunded my cost, but the other shirt arrived today. And guess what, the 2x fits perfectly!! I am still shocked! Of course, it all depends on the brand how things fit, as all shirts are not made equally LOL.

So was this all random enough for you? I warned you ha-ha!!! I love you all, and I thank you for continuing to come along this journey with me!

Weight Center Appointments

I saw the dietician, exercise physiologist, and nurse practitioner today for my 9-month postop checkups.

I will start with the biggest news first. As I posted on Facebook earlier, my NP took me off of metformin and Norvasc (blood pressure)! That makes no more diabetes meds and only one blood pressure pill, greatly reduced from the 3-4 I was on not too long ago. It’s non-scale victories like this that reaffirm the surgery was the best thing I could have ever done!

The NP said she is so proud of how far I’ve come. When I go back in January, they will do another bone density scan, which will be interesting to see how much has changed. I mentioned to her that I would love to be down in the 200s by that time, but we both agreed that I am not going to get too stressed out over it or be disappointed if I don’t quite get there.

The visit with the dietician went smoothly, and we did not really have any issues to discuss. She did give me ideas suitable for both sweet and salty cravings, as well as some appropriate dessert recipes. I haven’t really had bad cravings yet, just some quick passing thoughts about foods, usually after seeing a commercial for something LOL. When I try some of those recipes I will share them, and I will be available for any upcoming holiday gatherings haha!

I had never met this physiologist yet, but he was very nice, and I always appreciate getting different insights and approaches. He said a lot of what I am currently doing is great, but did have some recommendations. With strength training, he said the exercises that are multiple muscle, I should concentrate on more weight and less reps. I can keep on doing the same on the single muscle ones. He also gave me better positions for squats, and suggested that I do them in front of a chair but don’t sit all the way down. It would just be there if I need it. I tried a few in front of him and felt comfortable. As for walking outside, he had an interesting suggestion that I might look into: he said some people are now using ski poles as walking poles to help with balance as well as use their arms more. I am going to see how expensive they are.

All in all a great day! Next Monday I see my primary care physician, and this week I am going to call about scheduling a sleep study as I am sure my cpap settings need to be adjusted, and I may need a new mask. I will keep you updated as always.

Have a wonderful night everyone, I love you all!